It’s hard to hear people talk about all of their memories from when they were younger. People always say “my group of friends” and I in high school or college were so crazy or had so much fun blah blah blah. I didn’t have that though. I’ve never had friends who wanted to include me. All of the people I spent time with in high school avoid me whenever I cross their path now. I have met no new friends in college that I can say the friendship lasted more than a month. And in the time we did hang out, I was bored. I wasn’t myself. I felt like it was forced. I have a boyfriend that I love very much, but when will I find a best friend? When will I find another human who wants to be around me? My boyfriend is my best friend, but I’ve always wanted to make some of those crazy memories with my one group of friends that always hang out or walk into my house unannounced or something like that. I don’t want to have to make up stories about the friends I didn’t have just to seem normal. It sucks. Forever left out.